I glanced down. A long, white finger pressed into the soft flesh around my stomach.
“You say it!”
After a confused moment, I heard myself utter in a high-pitched voice, “Tee hee…”
My new boyfriend -the first I’d ever had, apart from the man I married (and, ten years later, divorced)- chuckled under his breath.
Frank and I were on our way to Chicago to celebrate my 32nd birthday. Living on opposite sides of the country meant a very creative “second” date, requiring several plane trips between the two of us.
“I’m trying to decide what dress to wear.”
My mind flashed back to a month earlier, when I’d confidently stepped out of the Whidbey Island, Washington hotel bathroom in underwear and pantyhose. I was the thinnest I’d ever been in my adult life, and the future seemed to span before me like the winking promise I’d always heard it could be.
Frank’s eyes swept over me, a frown accentuating his already elongated face. He held up one of the padded bras that had been in my suitcase.
“I think these should be illegal. It’s false advertising.”
“I just…don’t like having ‘the headlights on,'” I swallowed thickly and retreated into the bathroom, taken aback by the venom in his voice. I stared at my stocking-clad figure. I looked…sexy…right? I suddenly felt ridiculous. Who even wears pantyhose anymore?
On the drive to dinner that night, having decided to don my single-digit-sized new green dress, Frank told me about a recent trip to L.A. with one of his Navy buddies.
“I could never live there. The women at the bars wouldn’t even talk to us. Such snots.”
I stared out of the window.
At dinner, Frank assured me I could “go ahead and order whatever I wanted,” adding, in case I’d missed the inference, “Don’t worry about the cost.”
I smiled tightly. I’d recently been laid off from my well-paying corporate job thanks to “merger redundancies.” This was good. A guy like this never would have dated me before. You know, when I was…the F word. I mean, just last week he saw an old picture of me and said exactly that!
“Ouch!” I cried, putting a hand to my face.
“You had a chin hair,” Frank said casually, leaning back into his window seat.
My cheeks burned, the unforgiving sunlight streaming through the airplane window. First I was the Pilsbury dough boy and now I’m Tom Hanks in Castaway? I blinked back tears.
“What’s the big deal?” Frank demanded, seeing my watery eyes.
A month later, he dumped me. Via email.
This Valentine’s Day, I was going to make light of all of my bad dating experiences in a post entitled, “If My Actual Dating Life Were Valentines.”
I took silly photos and even joked with friends about what a gold mine this was. On Monday night, I sat down to write my brilliant Valentine quips, staring at the crimson hearts on the screen. Before long, my own heart sank. It…wasn’t funny.
I imagined all of the other hearts out there, smiling shyly in their stockings, exposed and vulnerable. I thought of every person rationalizing shitty situations because feelings of “less than” ate away their confidence. Smart, funny, kind people who might also entertain the truly insane idea that some jackass in aviator sunglasses was tied to their wellbeing.
Despite what you might believe after reading this, I love Valentine’s Day. I don’t love the commercialization or the temptation to feel lonely, I just love love, and choose to embrace any excuse to celebrate it.
On this Valentine’s Day, in a brand new decade, wherever you are and in whatever circumstances you find yourself, I hope you’ll accept this embarrassingly sincere post as a tiny token of my love for you.
And if anyone so much as lays a g.d. FINGER on your chin hair, so help me
baby Jesus Tom Hanks, you have my permission to bludgeon them with a jumbo-sized tube of Pilsbury crescent rolls.
15 thoughts on “My (Un)Funny Little Valentine”
Amen sister! Damn… I want to whack that guy with an axe, forget the Pillsbury dough. What an asshole!
Hey, you have a new name! Well, a rose by any other name would still yield an axe like a badass.
What the hell?
Who is that and why have they stolen my name…..
I thought maybe it was April Fools! But then I remembered this was a Valentine’s Day post.
Maybe it’s meant to say Hurray for your stellar post.
It still links back to me so I have no frickin’ clue!
I am hissing at this guy!! Thank God you aren’t tied to him forever… What a damaged person he was. You are too authentic and sharp to be putting up with his issues… SP4EVA 😋
SP4EVA!!! (SP also = “Single Person”) 😉
You know that I love you, in spite of your insanity, and that is all that matters, I’m sure.
You’re saying “in spite of,” but I’m hearing, “Because of.” Right back’atcha, Don!!
Thanks for the cute post. You are funny, kind, good looking. He will find you!
Thanks so much, Mary! Does he look like Darren Criss? 😉
love this, thank you ❤
Hooray, I found your blog! Wow, plucking chin hair without consent? What, what, what? Love your writing, I’m off to explore some more!
Kim! How cool to ‘see’ you here! Thanks so much for reading; that’s so flattering. Unlike my chin hair, apparently 😉